Today is the anniversary of one of the most devastating events in modern history. I know that September 11, 2001 changed my life forever.
We were in Leavenworth for the very first time. The town is so quaint, a Bavarian village in the Cascade mountains of Washington state. There is music piped through the streets and some of the shops have employees dressed in Bavarian costumes. We were staying at KOA and were going to take the little shuttle bus in to the village when I turned on the tv saying I just wanted to see what was going on in the world that morning. I literally said that. I switched on the tv in the bedroom of the RV and I saw the Pentagon but the little ticker running across the bottom of the screen said that the towers at the World Trade Center had collapsed. I was so confused and remember calling to my hubby. We both stood there in disbelief as the story started unfolding before our eyes.
Our cell phones didn’t work well there so I ran up to the payphone and called my family on the 800# for the family business. They were all stunned. It was my step-dad’s birthday and I called him and we kind of cried. I managed to get ahold of our oldest daughter, she was working the front desk at the YMCA back home and she had watched the 2nd plane hit the tower. It was so unreal.
We decided to go to the village anyway and when we got on the little bus, there was an older couple sitting there. We asked them if they had heard. The wife said she almost turned her tv on but didn’t want to miss the bus. We told her what happened and she asked us to tell her husband who was very hard of hearing. I will never forget seeing my husband lean forward and cup his hands to tell this veteran about what happened. He looked back in disbelief. We all rode silently to town. We walked through the village … it was such a strange contrast … that happy music and the people all walking around white-faced. We stood in one little shop with the shopkeeper and watched her little tv and we all shed tears.
We had to head home the next day and everything was on high alert. We had to pass Fort Lewis and the traffic was just horrible. I remember feeling like such a target because the rv has a huge American flag on the back. We kept getting cell calls from the church because they were setting up safe homes for those in our neighborhoods to be able to go to. It was so surreal.
For days and weeks, all I could do was watch the news. I feel like I was obsessed but what kept me needing to watch was the personal side of the people. I just kept seeing these faces. I tried to imagine trying to cope with having your entire life turned upside down. I watched as they showed people going back to their apartments to find such devastation. Does anyone else remember feeling so helpless?
Well, November 7, an announcement was made at our church. We were going to send a team through Real Ministries in Maple Valley and we were told that the team would go in and clean apartments. I sat there thinking, “I can do that.” It seemed like a total impossibility though. Our kids were fairly young, the little imp required a lot of care and I had this fear of being out of reach from him. However, I did stop by the information counter to talk to the girl in charge of it all. She said she thought I should take an application and consider it. We talked about it over lunch and hubby said he had the same thought about going.
There were 2 weeks to get in an application and half the money as a deposit. Here is where it is interesting. We had no money and since Christmas was near and we hadn’t started shopping yet, it didn’t seem very likely it would happen. However, the little seed began to grow and we couldn’t shake it. The closer the time got, the stronger it got and the more impossible it seemed. I also had a friend who desperately wanted to go and she didn’t have the money either. We prayed together so many times.
The day before the deadline, she was given a bit of money and decided to apply in faith that it would work out. I helped her with the application, even gave her mine to use. I took her picture to attach to it and helped her write out her testimony. All the while I felt like crying but I didn’t want to go if it wasn’t right. (yes, she got to go!)
The next morning, I was sitting on our bed, bawling like a baby watching the news report of the plane that crashed in Queens. I wondered how much the people could take. Hubby walked in from his prayer time at the church with the elders. He said…”If you want to go, we can go.” What? He said that our pastor was going to go but several elders felt it wasnt’ the right time for him to be gone so he wanted one of the elders to go. My hubby said that I wanted to go and he said that was fine, but he wanted one of the men to go too. He came home at 8 am to tell me and we had ONE HOUR to decide, get our applications filled out, pictures taken, yada yada yada. What an hour!
Now here’s what’s kind of funny but not. As soon as we handed in those applications, I was struck with total fear. What in the world was I thinking? I hate to fly. I am terrified of big cities. I was really afraid of it all…yet I felt I had to go. Over the next 2 weeks, we had so many things to do. Don’t laugh, but I was sure I wouldn’t come back home. The rational side of me was having to convince the irrational side that people do go and return. It wasn’t too funny, though. I had to go to the doctor for a medical release and I was convinced I had several ailments that would keep me from going and she (who knows me well) almost smiled at them…all stress.
In our orientation meeting, we were told that the unions would not allow us to clean apartments but that there would be lots of things to do. Now I was really scared.
We went from Dec. 1 – 8. Our flight left Seattle around midnight on a Saturday night/Sunday morning. We flew non-stop and I think I was the only one on the plane who didn’t really sleep. I did watch the little map on the tv screen for the seat next to me and tracked our progress. We arrived in New York at JFK airport around 8 am Sunday morning.
We stayed at Abounding Grace church on East 9th Street. All I know was it was 2 subway stops from Ground Zero. I had no concept really of where we were. We were taken directly to the church and shown the floor we’d sleep on. Our team was in the basement on hardwood floors. We had to roll everything up and put it away in the mornings because the room was used a lot for outreach. Hubby was on the top floor of the building with the men. It was an old bank building and the sanctuary was above us, then another long flight of stairs up to the “white room” where we got our assignments and ate.
The first thing they did was give us an orientation. There were teams coming in daily for 8 days, we were the 2nd. We all stayed 7 days. We were given our subway passes, our name tags, and then we were taken directly to Ground Zero. They said they had to show us the area quickly like that so we could get over the shock, then get to work. Since it was a weekend, the streets were jammed. I have never seen anything like it. We saw the walls of notes left by those who came. We saw the ashes in the church yard at St. Paul’s chapel, the little church in the shadow of the trade center. We walked on planks in some areas because they had the streets torn up to get at the water system. I really was affected when I saw a little tent with teddy bears and notes from children to their parents who would never come home again.
What did we do there? For that week, we worked in a feeding tent…I cracked 90 dozen eggs along with 2 young people from DC for french toast for workers all over the place. Some of the meals went to St Pauls, some to military guarding both ends of the bridges…and some people came in to eat. It was Dec. and the weather was unseasonably warm, but we worked the graveyard shift and it was cold.
At daybreak, as our team was leaving, hubby’s team was coming in. He got to help cook.
We went home to try to sleep. On Tues. morning, I had only had about 4 hours sleep since Sat. when we had left home. I was so keyed up. We got sent upstairs to sleep when our room was being used for church purposes. I didn’t fall asleep until that night after we got away for a few hours and went up to the top of the Empire State Building! I am afraid of heights, too, but was way more scared to stay down alone! I am so glad I went up there, it was so beautiful. I called the kids and kept telling them they’d never believe how beautiful it was. They said what they couldn’t believe was that I was up there! lol
We also set up a prayer station twice right at Ground Zero. People literally flocked to us. I talked to a young girl from Queens who had seen it all happen from where she was. I still don’t have a concept of being far away and being able to see it all. I think we talked for 45 min. She was so dear and hurting so bad. She had delivered food to fire stations and anything she could do to help. We stood with a young business man from NJ who had come for the first time. He had lost a friend. We also stood with a lady who had come from Europe, her sister had died there. It was very sobering.
Hubby and I went to a church where children from Stuyvesant High School ran by in the chaos. Many came in for shelter. Our job was to assemble packets of info to be used for a meeting to minister to the ministers. The pastors in the area were exhausted and others were coming in to encourage and help them.
Probably the biggest thing we did was work the Salvation Army Christmas Toy Shoppe. It was for children who were directly affected on September 11. Hubby and I were asked to work as grief counselors. Wow. There were 120 workers the day we were there and there was one lady who was an officer in the SA who worked with us. We were to mill around and just look for people who needed to talk. I can’t even begin to tell the stories we heard. Some had high paying jobs and now were there to recieve a toy or an article of clothing for their children. It was set up so beautifully and tables were designated for each age group. Each person was given an assistant to walk them through the toy shoppe. It was quite a day. We talked to a maitre d from a restaurant right there at the WTC who stood and watched it all, he was so thankful for the gifts for his children. I talked to 2 sisters who were each in a different building. They were told to stay but they left. They told me about jumping into any moving vehicle to get away. It took them both 8 hrs to get home and their families had no idea if they were ok. One of them was supposed to be on that flight to the Dominican Republic but decided to wait until after Christmas to go…the flight that crashed in Queens! The most memorable to me was a lady who at first said she was just fine and I felt prompted to ask her if she really was fine and she just fell apart. We talked for over half an hour as she told me how she was so frightened all the time. I gave her the Bible I had carried with me all week. It had been given to me to give to someone I met, that I would know when the person came along. She wept. She had always wanted an English Bible. She was puerto rican, had lived in the Bronx all her life and barely spoke english. We kept in touch for a long time until she moved to Florida. Her husband mouthed out to me over her head, simply “thank you”. He told my hubby that she really needed to be able to talk.
The next morning, we were given a “debriefing”. We were all so somber, changed forever. When we left there we were taken to a hotel in Times Square. We had that afternoon and the next day until 3pm to see as much as we could see. We walked miles. We ice skated in Central Park, we rode the Staten Island ferry, we walked and walked. I called my family from Tiffany’s to see if they needed anything. lol It was nothing short of amazing. I love that city. I will always remember the faces and the feeling of gratefulness that was expressed to us every single day. We have lots of fun stories of crazy things that happened, but we also saw things we never thought we’d see.
I am ever so grateful we got to go. Thanks for taking the time to read. I just felt the need to share it and if you made it this far, I pray that you take a minute to remember…not only those in NY but those in DC and all of the families who were affected.

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