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nothing bad, it’s just a time of adjustment and I haven’t really felt like doing much on here.

It’s going to take a little bit of time to get used to life as it now is. Most days, we’re fine…seriously. Some days there are bumps in the road. I suppose most of us can say that. Kenny and I have been talking a lot about how to keep ourselves from burning out. My way of dealing with stress is to find a quiet place and do nothing. Kenny needs to do something. I think I have an easier time of knowing what I need to do and doing it. We realize at the end of the vacation, Kenny had needed to get away a little bit on his own, go for a drive..alone, without a boy who idolizes him. That way he can enjoy those times when that same boy is with him and constantly asking what he’s doing.

Life is good and we know it.

Over Labor Day weekend, we finally got a chance to go see the movie I have so wanted to see… “Julie and Julia”. It was a disaster. We decided to go to the matinee in Olympia, we had fun getting our popcorn and drinks. The theater was packed, but thankfully we managed to get seats on the aisle. About a third of the way into the movie, everything started falling apart.

Tyler started breathing really weird. One thing we deal with with him is that he will NOT tell you what’s wrong. I didn’t know if it was something weird or what. It’s crazy with him, he would react to something very minor the way he would if it was very serious. Anyway, I start telling Kenny something was wrong. He finally gets up, climbs over me and takes Tyler out. By this point, I am hoping Tyler doesn’t puke on the poor man in front of him. (because he would never tell you if that is going to happen). They are gone sooo long that I begin to get anxious and can’t follow the movie. I finally put our popcorn down on the floor and grab my purse and Tyler’s jacket and leave. I hate how cramped everything is, it just felt hard to get out. I couldn’t find them anywhere. I was at a point of asking someone to check the men’s room. I kept going in and out of the movie, standing in the little hallway trying to see it but there was a lady trying to watch there too. I have really worked hard at managing anxiety where Tyler is concerned. but on this day, it wasn’t working too well.

After what seemed like an eternity, my boys returned, and they were laughing. Kenny was quite surprised to see me in the hall. He had taken Tyler out to the car and decided he was ok. Sooo, we all attempt to make ti back to our seats. I decided to take Kenny’s seat farthest in, as I am trying to sit down, I knocked his large drink on the floor. As he tries to pick it up, he knocks mine on the floor. So much for trying to be discreet. I tried to get back in to the movie, but frankly, I was just anxious for it to get over. I liked what I’d seen, but by then I just felt stressed and embarrassed.

Tyler’s problem?  Either he didn’t like the movie or he didn’t like his lemonade.  ugh

I love the days of technology that we live in. We went to the music store and the boys went in while I sat in the car. I logged on to Facebook with my phone and changed my status to: “Note to self. Next time I really want to see a movie, get a babysitter.” Within minutes, I had recieved incredible encouragement. One was from a mom with an autistic son, she’s also a pastor’s wife and good friend. It’s just nice to know others understand. It really bumped me into a better place.

However, we went to Red Robin and while we were sitting there, I was kind of surprised that tears just started flowing. I knew I was ok. I could laugh at it all. But the reality of my life just happened to hit me right there. I think there are things that are a LOT worse. However, as I watch my friends become empty nesters, we have found ourselves in a place where we are having to find childcare and it’s a little overwhelming. I know I experience God’s grace every day and I am grateful for it and I see the tremendous blessing in our lives…at the same time, I would be lying to say it’s easy.

Enough of that. I just needed to write it out so I can come back later. This has become more about the journey of my life than anything and I need to see where I’ve been.

I have barely been knitting. This seems to happen to me when life feels a little overwhelming. However, I’m getting the bug to start some new things. I do have another grandchild on the way and I am just as excited about this new little sweet pea! Rhianna is feeling the baby kick now and it’s pretty exciting!

I haven’t been taking many pictures but I did put together a short, short little video of Tyler and Mayah. Tyler hasn’t been too into having a camera pointed at him, but he was really cute when we left the theater the other day. What I did was turn the camera on when I thought I was stopping it and recorded an hour in my pocket. lol

Anyway, enjoy! The girl is pretty close to walking most of the time. She totally loves her Uncle Tyler, she actually mauls him. It’s so funny because the rest of us would love it if she’d do it to us and he doesn’t really care. He does love her, though and is so good with her. I think she’s going to enjoy life with her Uncle Tyler.

Tags: difficult, mayah, tyler

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